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it's a free country you know.
so, yeah, i am one insensitive twit. but every woman's for herself and blogger gave me the eternal right to post whatever you want.
you're not the only one with feelings you know. you've been unreasonable for many times but i still try to understand you. tama si prangks. makasarili ka nga! nakakapagod kang habulin pa... sawa na ko.
just 5 words. I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE. ganun lang naman kasimple e. you don't have to push me everytime i tried to stand up. ansakit na ng tuhod ko okay? basta, hindi naman masamang magtanong e. kainin ka sana ng kapraningan mo.
i remember carlo saying, 'if you don't like me, just tell me okay? don't roll your eyes like that'. and i laughed. :))
i guess this is the most conversation ill make for the rest of the week. wont be talking to anyone until i taste Ate Jing's Chicken Terriyaki again.
I mean, FUCK. Ikaw na nga lang nakikibasa, ikaw na lang nakikitingin sa profile ng may profile,ikaw na tong kinakamusta, IKAW PA ANG GALIT.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Drag me to the finish line.
First off, I want to greet one of my favorite lefties in the world and my favorite left-handed guitarist at that a very happy birthday. :)
Yay! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINO SINGSON of ITCHYWORMS :)
xxx
I am literally hurting because of the Fun Run I attended. My partner ran the whole distance twice. I did run. But I started walking off the remaining 0.5 kilometers. My feet literally killed me.
Meet my partner :)
Us in singlets :)
xxx
Despite waking up very early, getting bickered by my dad in the car,run walking 3.5kms, getting a total body ache after, it was worth it. Cos I got to hug YOU :)
Yay! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINO SINGSON of ITCHYWORMS :)
xxx
I am literally hurting because of the Fun Run I attended. My partner ran the whole distance twice. I did run. But I started walking off the remaining 0.5 kilometers. My feet literally killed me.
Meet my partner :)
Us in singlets :)
xxx
Despite waking up very early, getting bickered by my dad in the car,
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
happy meal.
"Cos if one day you'll wake up and find out you're missing me. And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be thinking maybe you'd come back in to the place that we've meet and you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. So I'm not moving."
The man who can't be moved - The Script
XXX
"I don't care" She shouted at him.
"We're not even together. I can't believe you're that selfish, Chua." He yelled back.
"Chua? It's just Chua now huh, Marasigan?" She hollered.
They were going on and on for quite sometime. She was upset for she was denied of a very simple request: accompanying her to her errands for the day and have herself checked by the doctor in the afternoon.
As fear materialized in her chest and anxiety shot up as high as the heavens, she once again uttered, "well, i just wanted you to be there in one of the most importabt days of my life. I guess you didn't really cared at all."
He turned his back.
"It's over now huh? It's that simple?" She said with tears in her eyes and walked away...
XXX
"Now it's my problem? I can't believe she's that selfish. She always disregarded how I felt about everything. She doesn't care if I felt very uncomfortable of being there with her. I mean, doctor's appointment? What the hell? We are not even together. For Christ's sake! Ugh. I hate this life."
I wrote on my journal dated January 17,2009.
I turned off the light and went to bed that night. It was the last time I saw her or ever heard from her. She was active on certain social networking sites but she wasn't replying to my few attempts of patching things up with her. I know she was just holding back. But I can't really tell. It's over, I guess.
I was her bestfriend. She was my alter ego. She was born to be a doctor and I was made to be an engineer. We met in some fastfood chain near school. After that first meet, we'd always be together despite the discrepancies in our sched. We were so close that people thought that we're together. I hate that. I hated being talked about.
Now, everything's over.
No more drinking contests, no more cheering me up and making me laugh my ass out, no more motivating me during major exams, no more helping me in stuff we perfectly knew she knew nothing about, no more late night texts and early morning greetings.. I'll miss that, I guess. She was absolutely sweet. It's in her nature. It's gone in just a snap of a finger.
XXX
"Friend, is that selfish of me? I mean, I just wanted him to be there. I'm absolutely scared that day and we both know that by being there, whatever happens, I'm going to be okay. Is it too much to ask?" I told my friend.
"Kim, he was always like that. You know him." My friend said.
"Exactly. I was there for him for the longest time but I felt he wasn't there for me.i never failed to make him feel special. I never failed to show the world that he's important. I never failed to be there for him. I mean, I'm not asking him to love him the way I do or do the things I do for him. It's not that. All I wanted was a simple favor. I can't understand why it has to end like this."
XXX
A few months after they last seen each other, he received a text from an unknown number. It says "Hi Marc. This is Kim's dad. Can you pass by the house today. It's really important."
"I'll be there in 30 minutes, Sir. Thank you." He replied.
Marc was surprised to see flowers everywhere, people in white and lots of food.
"Hi Marc. Have a seat." Mr. Chua welcomed.
"Hi. Good evening Sir. If you don't mind me asking, what happened?" Marc politely asked.
"That's the thing." Mr. Chua started. "Kim died a few days ago. She told me that she asked you to accompany her to the doctor. I hope you remember."
"Yes Sir. Please go on"
"It was the day her lab results were released and on the same day, her doctor diagnosed her with leukemia."
Marc was shocked upon hearing the news.
"She was hospitalized for quite some time and she told us as well as her other friends not to tell you. She didn't want you to see her suffer. She didn't want to bother you anymore."
He gave Marc a tap on the back and handed him an envelope. "By the way, she wanted to give you this."
"Thank you Sir." Marc said as he took the envelope and went to the back of the room.
His heart started melting when he read the letter.
"hey Makoi,
You probably know why I asked you to accompany me before you even received this. I just wanted you to be there. I just wanted you to hold my unusually cold hands so they'd be warm again like what you did all these years. I just wanted you to kiss the fear away by just being there by my side.
You'd always be someone special to me, even if you'd deny it most of time. You'd always be the one I'd run to for my problems no matter how shallow they are. You'd always be the one for me.
I'm sorry if you thought I was selfish. I'm sorry if it made you feel very uncomfortable. It's the last thing I wanted you to feel. I'm sorry if I haven't told you that I was sick and I didn't tell you that I was bedridden for quite sometime. I didn't want you to see me suffer. The pain that my illness gave me is excruciating and I don't want you to see how I struggled every second for survival. It was really hard for me for you not be there. But I think it's for the better.
I've told you this a million times already, I love you Makoi. And I'll always will. Even in another life.
Love, Kimpoy."
Drops of liquid smudged some of the wrtings as he meticulously folded the piece of paper. He went upfront to see his bestfriend,the love of his life for the very last time. She was beautiful. He wiped his tears, pressed his lips against the glass and kissed her goodbye. "I love you." he whispered. "and I guess I would never have the chance to tell it to you." he kissed her again.
He looked at her with awe for a few more minutes. He saw the ribbon that says "Kimpoy + Makoi = :)". They would always write that equation. He kissed her again for the very last time.
"Mr. Chua, thank you for everything. But I think I need to go" Marc bid goodbye.
"Marc, just a moment." He said. " I forgot to give you this."
He handed Marc a glass from Mcdonalds. "She said that it's very memorable to the both of you. It was her last wish. Even if it wasn't allowed she wanted a coke float from one McDonald's branch. I don't really know why."
Marc thanked him and went home.
His tears fell again when he saw the writing on the cup. "June 3,2005 McDo Katip". It was the place when they first met.
"I'm going back to the corner when I first saw you. I'm gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move" The man who can't be moved" - The script
The man who can't be moved - The Script
XXX
"I don't care" She shouted at him.
"We're not even together. I can't believe you're that selfish, Chua." He yelled back.
"Chua? It's just Chua now huh, Marasigan?" She hollered.
They were going on and on for quite sometime. She was upset for she was denied of a very simple request: accompanying her to her errands for the day and have herself checked by the doctor in the afternoon.
As fear materialized in her chest and anxiety shot up as high as the heavens, she once again uttered, "well, i just wanted you to be there in one of the most importabt days of my life. I guess you didn't really cared at all."
He turned his back.
"It's over now huh? It's that simple?" She said with tears in her eyes and walked away...
XXX
"Now it's my problem? I can't believe she's that selfish. She always disregarded how I felt about everything. She doesn't care if I felt very uncomfortable of being there with her. I mean, doctor's appointment? What the hell? We are not even together. For Christ's sake! Ugh. I hate this life."
I wrote on my journal dated January 17,2009.
I turned off the light and went to bed that night. It was the last time I saw her or ever heard from her. She was active on certain social networking sites but she wasn't replying to my few attempts of patching things up with her. I know she was just holding back. But I can't really tell. It's over, I guess.
I was her bestfriend. She was my alter ego. She was born to be a doctor and I was made to be an engineer. We met in some fastfood chain near school. After that first meet, we'd always be together despite the discrepancies in our sched. We were so close that people thought that we're together. I hate that. I hated being talked about.
Now, everything's over.
No more drinking contests, no more cheering me up and making me laugh my ass out, no more motivating me during major exams, no more helping me in stuff we perfectly knew she knew nothing about, no more late night texts and early morning greetings.. I'll miss that, I guess. She was absolutely sweet. It's in her nature. It's gone in just a snap of a finger.
XXX
"Friend, is that selfish of me? I mean, I just wanted him to be there. I'm absolutely scared that day and we both know that by being there, whatever happens, I'm going to be okay. Is it too much to ask?" I told my friend.
"Kim, he was always like that. You know him." My friend said.
"Exactly. I was there for him for the longest time but I felt he wasn't there for me.i never failed to make him feel special. I never failed to show the world that he's important. I never failed to be there for him. I mean, I'm not asking him to love him the way I do or do the things I do for him. It's not that. All I wanted was a simple favor. I can't understand why it has to end like this."
XXX
A few months after they last seen each other, he received a text from an unknown number. It says "Hi Marc. This is Kim's dad. Can you pass by the house today. It's really important."
"I'll be there in 30 minutes, Sir. Thank you." He replied.
Marc was surprised to see flowers everywhere, people in white and lots of food.
"Hi Marc. Have a seat." Mr. Chua welcomed.
"Hi. Good evening Sir. If you don't mind me asking, what happened?" Marc politely asked.
"That's the thing." Mr. Chua started. "Kim died a few days ago. She told me that she asked you to accompany her to the doctor. I hope you remember."
"Yes Sir. Please go on"
"It was the day her lab results were released and on the same day, her doctor diagnosed her with leukemia."
Marc was shocked upon hearing the news.
"She was hospitalized for quite some time and she told us as well as her other friends not to tell you. She didn't want you to see her suffer. She didn't want to bother you anymore."
He gave Marc a tap on the back and handed him an envelope. "By the way, she wanted to give you this."
"Thank you Sir." Marc said as he took the envelope and went to the back of the room.
His heart started melting when he read the letter.
"hey Makoi,
You probably know why I asked you to accompany me before you even received this. I just wanted you to be there. I just wanted you to hold my unusually cold hands so they'd be warm again like what you did all these years. I just wanted you to kiss the fear away by just being there by my side.
You'd always be someone special to me, even if you'd deny it most of time. You'd always be the one I'd run to for my problems no matter how shallow they are. You'd always be the one for me.
I'm sorry if you thought I was selfish. I'm sorry if it made you feel very uncomfortable. It's the last thing I wanted you to feel. I'm sorry if I haven't told you that I was sick and I didn't tell you that I was bedridden for quite sometime. I didn't want you to see me suffer. The pain that my illness gave me is excruciating and I don't want you to see how I struggled every second for survival. It was really hard for me for you not be there. But I think it's for the better.
I've told you this a million times already, I love you Makoi. And I'll always will. Even in another life.
Love, Kimpoy."
Drops of liquid smudged some of the wrtings as he meticulously folded the piece of paper. He went upfront to see his bestfriend,the love of his life for the very last time. She was beautiful. He wiped his tears, pressed his lips against the glass and kissed her goodbye. "I love you." he whispered. "and I guess I would never have the chance to tell it to you." he kissed her again.
He looked at her with awe for a few more minutes. He saw the ribbon that says "Kimpoy + Makoi = :)". They would always write that equation. He kissed her again for the very last time.
"Mr. Chua, thank you for everything. But I think I need to go" Marc bid goodbye.
"Marc, just a moment." He said. " I forgot to give you this."
He handed Marc a glass from Mcdonalds. "She said that it's very memorable to the both of you. It was her last wish. Even if it wasn't allowed she wanted a coke float from one McDonald's branch. I don't really know why."
Marc thanked him and went home.
His tears fell again when he saw the writing on the cup. "June 3,2005 McDo Katip". It was the place when they first met.
"I'm going back to the corner when I first saw you. I'm gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move" The man who can't be moved" - The script
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